Roger would laugh...

Wow. so yesterday i went to my storage to go look for the old pics I have of Roger.... its funny cuz in high school Roger and I had so much freakin anger towards one another and we have talked about that and laughed it up. Reason being - I use to be part of "Teen Court" at Kempner. You wouldn't know about it unless yo a$$ got in trouble a lot. hahhahah basically kids who got written up were given a chance to be judged by their peers on what their punishment would be. It could be like Saturday School, or clean the cafeteria or tutor or some junk like that. lol. Sometimes I would be the defense lawyer and sometimes I would be the prosecutor. Well...when I met Roger... I was the prosecutor. LOLZ!!! ohh man and so I went to all his teachers to try and get them to say somethin bad about him. I dunno what he was written up for..i can't remember. yet when looking through my stuff yesterday I found this... "deposition". It's a form one of Roger's teachers filled out. It says "roger is honest and very straight forward" hahahhahha which is so true. I actually found two..the other one said "He is always present. He works better by himself. He cares about his grades." So you see...for me being the prosecutor..that crap didn't help me!! Although!! I am a bad-a$$ persuader and ended up convincing the student jury that Roger was in the wrong - and he got sent to saturday school!! hahahhahahhaah thus the Irene vs Roger highschool days. He really was upset with me. Then we found out we were running in the same crew and I remember him telling them "no man, don't be her friend, she fu** got me in Saturday school." hahha but everyone would be like "nah Irene's chill man..." and he would talk soo much shii to me and I always held my ground with Roger. Then it so happened that I started my Thanksgiving traditions at my house which is what i'm known for. We did that for 7 years straight after highschool...we didn't need no damn reunion...all of us stayed close. The funny part is that the first two years I would not let Roger in my house for nothin. I was like "roger? hell nah. keep him out." hahahhah and then i think it was the 3rd year or 4th year that Aman came in and was like "hey man, Roger is outside... can u just let him in." and i told aman "nah cuz he's just so freakin inconsiderate to me." and aman said "no he's real cool he doesn't mean it..." and i thought about it hard and Aman was really wanting him inside... (this part..sigh....) and i was like "ok man. let him in..but if he starts talkin shii, he's out." and that my friend..thats how Roger and I became friends. It was funny cuz he came inside and after all that time that we were so mean to each other... he walks in and it was like an akward moment...but then we both smiled. I fixed him up a plate of food, got him a drink....and we were on cool terms. one of the best decisions i've made.
man...Roger...u guys dont understand how unreal it is. Funny cuz as his teacher said he was very straight forward. if i wanted an honest opinion that guy freakin gave it to me. Everytime i called him to tell him to come out and chill with the crew...he was there... no questions or anything..just came. One time we were all at his apartment and actually i was driving and I remember Jamuna was chillin with us that day too and the other guys were all in the other cars but Roger wanted to ride with the girls. We had a deep conversation about relationships and he was like "man u two...u two are good girls. I need a good girl like you guys." and I would ask him about him dating and he was just always worried about his weight and all this and not meeting the right kind of girls. I mean, i was pretty shocked to find out Roger had a sensitive side. hahhaha yah but alot of things came out that night and those are the kinds of conversations with friends you just don't forget. Through the years he's been there and like everyone else you catch up when you see them and although its been awhile...its ok...cuz u talk like it was just yesterday. and that's how it is with all of us and my thing is to keep everyone together. thats why it hurts. i keep them together and when one is not there I know it because each person has an impact on me and freakin everyone will come thru when I need them most. those are the types of friends i have and love and I do everything for them in return. Roger not being there anymore ....its like this freakin pierce in my heart....he is who i talk shit with, he is who makes me laugh at his perspectives on life, people, and he is the biggest teddy bear who will only let u in if he feels comfortable. like Bj said..Roger was a soldier...he did play that role. with me being the only girl most of time I got to see a different side yet he would lay the smack down on me too without hesitation. hahah and only he could.
Last time I saw him was on my birthday..at my birthday party dinner but i'm not talking about that..i mean my actual birthday..that Thursday at Melting Pot. I was sitting there and all of a sudden someone yells my name as if I was halfway across the room..scurred the shii out of me. I look up and its Roger. all smiles. hahhaha and i'm like "what da hell?!" cuz i hadn't made calls out for peeps to show up..just to some of the girls and guys. Turns out he was taking his girlfriend out to dinner...and he was soo happy and I clowned on him too...i was like "awwww how cute" hahahhahah he was all embarassed. u know what though... he had himself a good girl. He really was being the best he could be and u can only be proud of that.
so i pray for him, i already seen the little signs here and there, i know that kid smiling down standing there blinking his eyes and cracking knuckles..he should be...he is where we all hope to be. aww i miss u Roger. my door is always open and there is always a seat for u at the table....hugs much love....