****Disclaimer: Jul is aware of this blog lolz..daaaaamn well you guys remember Hawaii right? He met a couple of you when he came to visit me. Take a look at his recent pic after almost a year in the army now...... i love the army!! lolz! awwww i'm kidding. he finished top of his class and supposedly has all these great things going on for him and i'm genuinely happy he has achieved this goal in his life.
timing has always been the only element in my life that surprises me. I mean you can pretty much tell me anything or do anything and i will rarely have a shocked reaction. Yet when it comes to timing... certain events happen at just that right moment and i'm like "this is so weird." With that said.. this past Friday i was at work for no reason and just listening to music... pretty much had myself in a somber state and was talking to Hatim (the one i went to Vegas with) about life in general and how we should always be on that Vegas vacation. hahah so certain topics came up and my sensitive ass had to go and be a girl about it and whine and cry right? (this is what happens when i get a two hour break between getting ready to go out and actually going out) cuz for the most part i'm pretty damn hyper and laughing at you. lolz.
then not even an hour later, jul calls me. (i still keep in touch with his sister which is how he got my number) so here comes this call from the army. and its soooo weird..... he called to say Happy Thanksgiving and before i could say thank you... he goes off about regrets he had about us not working out.... pretty much everything he should have said back in the day right? and with me, every relationship that fails i can't help to think that its because of me and he just completely turned every thought i had around. the timing though, i havent heard from him in about a year already... it was pretty unreal and yet sad for me. i honestly needed to hear everything he said at that moment. he truly was a breath of fresh air at the time that i met him. So yeah.. he is still here in Texas in San Antonio. He wants me to visit next weekend which I may or may not do. I personally dislike San Antonio. lolz.
Anyways he did send his regards out to my friends and i wish him well. He told me that he is pretty sure they will deploy him and he is scared about it and that hurts as well to hear yet at the same time it is the choices you make in life right? After this whole holiday of Thanksgiving and sincerely thinking about what we should be grateful for..... i'm thankful for just being right here and you being right here with me. material things mean nothing in my book... my heart belongs to all those i cross paths with whether it was years ago or now, i wish nothing but your well-being.
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yeah, my brother steals from me and went to the star of hope's drug rehab program for a few weeks (unfortunately, he only stayed for 2 weeks...he had to much pride to stay with homeless people and junkies for longer than that). i just found not not even 5 minutes ago that he stole $40 from my wallet!!! i just got that $40 too and that was going to last me until my next paycheck. it disgusts me, i swear. anyway, i sort of relate to your out of the blue call from jul. i got one of those calls two months ago from justin. it was nice.
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