looking forward..

I've honestly never made New Year's resolutions just because I doubt I would stick to them. Funny thing is i said "ok no sweets this year" and what happened at midnight? i happen to be chomping on a cookie. hahhaha what an idiot. my cousin tried to make me feel better too hahaha he was all "umm that could be the last cookie of the year!" tru.. but one minute into the new year and I had already grabbed a second cookie. oh the travesty of it all. tsk..tsk...tsk...

moving forward is essentially what i would like to do this year. its awesome because almost every weekend i've been with family and I luv it! i actually have cousins to talk to and everything! sad how family drama can tear you away for years...lots of lost years... i'm glad that time has come where we can all have decent conversations and all be of partying age! yesss! 

so thinking along those lines and knowing that the majority of my time is constantly with my friends... i just stopped for a minute to think about others who could not say the same. I decided to go visit Roger and noticed they finally put up a beautiful headstone for him... last i was there was in October and there wasn't one yet. 

I visited him because well... he visited me.. and in this so called dream that was too vivid to be that... he gave me the biggest bear hug and i could smell the cologne on his neck and he told me he loved all of us. He said he was only going to hang around until Aman's thing and then he has to go. I assume its Aman's wedding he is referring to. The whole dream or delusion was very moving for me because i woke up in the hugging position and i just started to tear. I've had family pass on me before and ive been real close to them but never had a dream or any signs to do with them or from them. I know Roger has been watching us and his timing couldn't have been better. Here's to memories of '07 and years before...