wondering when my someday will begin...

How Could An Angel Break My Heart
Toni Braxton & Baby Face

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wished I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

I heard her face was white as rain
(Your face is white as rain)
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
(Soft as a rose in May)
He keeps her picture in a frame
(I keep your picture)
And when he sleeps he calls her name
(I only call out your name)
I wonder if she makes him smile
(She doesn't make me smile)
The way he used to smile at me
(I only smile at you)
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
(She doesn't make me laugh)
Because his laugh belongs to me
(My laugh belongs to you)

How could an angel break my heart
(You are my heart)
Why didn't he catch my falling star
(I will catch your star)
I wished I didn't wish so hard
(Don't wish so hard)
Maybe I wished our love apart
(Love falls apart)
How could an angel break my heart
(Your tender heart)

Oh (My love)
My (I know that)
Soul (I know your)
Is (Is dying)
Dying (I know your soul is crying)
It's crying (I know that
you've been dying)
I'm trying (Trying)
To understand
Please help me (Please help me)

How could an angel break my heart
(I'd never break your heart)
Why didn't he catch my falling star
(I'd catch your falling star)
I wished I didn't wish so hard
(You never wished too hard)
Maybe I wished our love apart
(We're not apart)
How could an angel break my heart
(Oooh yeah)

Ouch.

So below is a poem sent to me by JV... although I think it would be better named "harsh reality"or "it is your fault" or "quit complaining biatch". lol...Still a nice flow of words...

"when it's gone"

you never miss something until it's gone
when it feels so wrong, waited too long
when it's too late, way over the due date
can't change the past, unable to make it last
this ain't a movie, don't mean to tell u rudely
u won't get it back, ain't funny no laugh
trackending won't be a kiss, no sudden twist
its a cold hard reality, so kneel, pray to your deity
don't take it for granted, just because it was handed
or fell into your lap, see, that's how we fall for the trap
thinking it will always be there, it was agreed and made clear
but never paid considerate attention, even if it wasn't ur deliberate intention
stinging loss you'll quietly feel, not sudden, eventually it'll be real
wishing it was a nightmare, a dream, hoping it's not what it seems
life only has one take, no reshoots, so think of decisions you make
no special effects to hide the blemish, even the smallest fault you must cherish
so if you ever discover it, don't wait till its late you'll never recover it

bruised.

Wake up.

Maverick turn yo candy ass around and BE A MAAAAN lolz... the nerve!! all of a sudden you are going to play hero to the economy?! Seems like someone is scared of debates with Obama, maybe you have to prepare for it as well as Palin did for her interview with Charles Gibson. Then again, she can see Russia from Alaska ...so you probably still see yourself in 4 years....

Question: What da hell is going on????!!!

America....America...god shed his grace on thee...And crown thy good .....with brotherhood...From sea to shining sea....

Now I'm not sure about your perspective on issues as of late, yet if the President of Iran says - "American empire in the world is reaching the end of its road, and its next rulers must limit their interference to their own borders" - I would pretty much get ready for a checkmate. These last 8 years have been damaging and a spiraling path downwards in all structure and against the beliefs of what America was built on. Can you imagine...2008..when we were suppose to be all space cars and technology and smart smart smart..... if this was the case, why are the critics stating we haven't seen times like these since the Great Depression!!! what??! Could the republicans have been so greedy, so careless, so oblivious to our "brotherhood" with countries that they ended up bringing the "empire" down in 8 years time? Incredible.

North Korea is restarting its nuclear program, Iran won't cease from their program, Russia is not ready to be bossed around about its reasons on invading Georgia, China backs Russia and leaves the difficulty in the UN Security Council, and you know what... and this is exactly what I've been saying for years in explaining the difference among people... if you are not cultured, aware of your fellow man and his beliefs and practice, if you do not take the time to learn what is "different" from your traditions and views... then you will NOT understand anyone who is not like you. and if you have this mentality and you enter public office and all of a sudden need to interact within a global arena, you will fail with your one-sided views and your inability to be diplomatic and offer alternative solutions. I say this because the countries of Iran for example. Yes Ahmadinejad is President, yet he is also a puppet. The real man behind the curtain is a man named Ali is who is the Ayatollah of Iran which goes way back into a history between suni and shi'a muslims... in a way for westerners to understand you could say he is kind of like the pope yet with way more of a higher standing and power. Basically whatever he says goes, period. If he says war, then war it is. So to understand and get this scope of what a war with Iran would entail.. because the religion factor will drive this so called world war 3 and if you dont think that's what is at stake, you better stop watching American Idol, The Simpsons, etc and pick up a book and research.
Why did we go into Iraq? Supposed weapons of destructions right? Recall that Bush was told there was no evidence of this before hand, yet politics put its dirty hand in the cookie jar and made the public believe that yes there is weapons of mass destruction. wow so then what happens? we lose millions in money, lost lives of our troops and surprise..no weapons found. Now lets look at Iran. The same situation! they are working on a peaceful nuclear energy program which you CAN do as long as the "watchdog" agency is allowed to check everything out. They say Iran does not have any harmful programs...yet the US insists again on this. This is why Russia is saying "no, we are not going to have another Iraq". make sense?

Ok so Bush says...no, we are going to war because you are dealing with programs of mass destruction and you are a supposrtive country of the terrorist. Ok now, you have Iran who wants to rid Israel, and well guess what Syria doesn't like Israel either and who is in Syria? You have Hamas, Hezbollah, Islamic Jihad, and u know the crazy North Korea will provide the nuclear arms we are all afraid to aid them and China and Russia will be against us to stop the United States from our little power trip and destruction to the world economy. You have to be careful with the word "terrorist". In the views of Hezbollah, Hamas, you have to understand these are people who are protecting their country as well from Israelis who feel they have the right to just claim whatever land they want. Its not any different from Americans stepping on another soil and doing the same thing or Georgians doing the same thing.

Side One: Israel, the United States, Britain, France and Germany
Side Two: Iran, Russia, China, Syria and North Korea

This is the fight in the holy land. Be ready, know what you stand for because these are the times we have always spoke of. The disasters, plagues, destruction of humanity.... you want to vote Mcain this is what will continue. Obama has already said he will work all other forms of diplomacy to death to avoid war yet not ruling out war... thats better than just going into office and saying "World War III". and yes, i feel comfortable with Palin controlling this situation. Traveled once in her life. culture people, culture. I am my brother's keeper...

Busy Bee

Dear Blog,

so last night was another night out with da boys. or night in, cuz we watched the season premier of heroes. It was me, Dullah, Aman, Zubair, Zishan, Robin, and AK. Now did i like the 2 hour episode of heroes... eh..... well i mean there is just too much goin on, i'm pretty much lost in the character development since i missed part of last season. It still captures my attention, I just have to get with the story line again...

my disclaimer: THE FOLLOWING IS FOR GEEKS ONLY.....

today was the big Adobe CS4 debut !!!!! oh daaaaaaaaamn creative suite 4 kicks ass... In Dreamweaver you have the web engine built INSIDE the application to immediately see the results and the use of Ajax has finally been kicked up a notch! In Illustrator, you can work with several artboards on one page! not to mention the ease between switching files between illustrator, flash, and Indesign. I sat through the broadcast which literally was jaw dropping. This is not just a "tweak" to CS3, this is some serious serious development. and guess what folks??? My job is buying the MASTER COLLECTION!! wooooooooooooooooooot!!! $2,500 for it.... luv it! just luv it!! man, i can't wait until its in my hands!!!!! i'm gonna use that thing and become a sik sik developer.... photoshop alone seems endless....wow....just wow.....

On another note, I created this per the request of our company's president. I'm going to research about this Jewish holiday and actually the fasting in Islam and Catholicism - it will be my next blog. I just wanted to show you the design I created because he was very pleased since many people complimented him for it through email. yays!! I mean i only did it in 20 minutes with no idea what this holiday is about lolz.... i just found out that bread, apples, and honey were a big thing... my next blog is gonna be intellectual....lol...for all those tired of hearing me talk my ghetto-ness about my daily activities hahahha whatever, im keeping busy. In fact, i'm about to jump on killa bee and head out to Aman's place... we are watching the new Michael Moore film which comes out online today..its called SLACKER. http://slackeruprising.com/ watch the documentary. Then on Friday we are watching Barack kick Mcain's Maverick ass on foreign policy and national security... served with a side of brisket and queso.... yays!

on another note, i just want to say i have mad luv for my boys. i think i would be a total mess right now if i didnt have their company. thanks for keeping me grounded...and laughing...always laughing...

First Day of Fall ...

Listen Up Class....
the correct term for the First Day of Fall is "Autumnal Equinox". Que? What u say?

Well its when the sun is at 0° 00' which means daytime and nighttime are nearly the same amounts of time. On this day, we will have 12 hours of daylight.

Now, will I see all 12 hours???? No. In fact, here in my IT department we like to work with the lights off...so um 8 hours of work in the dark... then step outside... great i get to see 4 hours of sunlight... and thanks to Ike, I could frolic in the leaves that are all over the roads and sidewalks, hell i could jump into a pile of trees instead.... lol....

So Ike is over. finished playing evacuee...althought not to make light of it because seriously some people are without homes and even when you drive on 610 the signs says "Galveston closed off to the public" which is pretty devastating. I mean, i think the water is ugly yet I do love to go fishing on those piers out there.... bummer....

Power outage. yah u know it was kinda rough, nothing too crazy. We from Texas though, we can BBQ up a meal, no need for power. Cold showers on the other hand.. not cool..... On the up up up side... Houston is hands down a very close knit supportive community. Mayor Bill White deserves a standing ovation for being on top of the game and the way the city has recovered in just a week is truly amazing. I am a Houstonite...lol or Houstonian... people are just very very laid back here and I love that.

Oh so last night we had iftar at Ridwan's place. Then we watched the Dallas/Packers game and then we all decided to play Pictionary. hahahhah Girls vs Guys and the guys won both times, although I wont mention the crazy cheating goin on lol I will mention Sofia's lovely drawing which I have recreated here... this is what she drew:

no no, it did look exactly as scrappy as this rendition. hahahha so the three lines on top means it is three words...ok fine... and mind you, during this game if you are the one drawing, you cannot talk to your teamates, they have to guess the words. So she draws the whale and i guess it and she acknowledges that part is correct... here is where it gets a little strange.... she draws that man there holding up a sign... so we are all "Protest?!" "Protest animals?" "Whale watching?!" hahahha just yelling out all sorts of stuff... then she draws that other object you see on your left... a stop sign... so now we are all "Stop!" and Sofia is getting all excited as the drawer nodding her head that we are on the right track...so we are all "Stop! Whales! ??? Stop Watching Whales?! Stop killing Whales?!!" and finally we yell "Stop the Whales!!" haaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahhah and she is all "Yesssssssssss!! that's it!!!" and so at that moment i was slightly feeling confused because that phrase didnt make sense to me. The category was action and why would you stop whales?? hahha well then the guys were like "no! that's not right, you guys are wrong!" and Sofia is like, "Nah ah!! That was the word!!!" and by this time ...the timer has run out. Then Aman yells at Sofia "No u dummy! It was "Save the Whales!!" OMG. hahahhahahha i died laughing!!! and then Dullah pointed out "and why would you draw a man on his sign that he is holding????" hahahhahahahhahahha so we were all dying of laughter and i had to throw in "ur drawing BLOWS." hahahhahahhahahahhahah i luv it. that was too much fun. heehee... ok that was my game night last night with my old skool peeps. yays!

Have a lovely cool fall day. Smile, it just makes things better despite all the BS.. lolz......

More Ike Pics around town...

Chase JP Morgan building downtown... glass everywhere on the streets....

Another shot of the building...this is just the top portion......

Whole street filled with this stuff

My dad's favorite sign torn down.. lol.....

This is part of 45 south

Disabled vehicles will be towed...

National Guard coming through

Tree down in River Oaks Area

River Oaks

River Oaks was hit hard...

More trees...

with bending action..look at those roots...

Taco stands feeding the hungry... u know i was there..

This is I-10 u guys... shocking... notice the sign...

I-10 and Sheperd

Tree in the heights..twisted...literally...

uprooted the driveway in the heights

My work has taken very good care of my father and I. They are giving all employees $1000 for inconvenience due to the storm. In addition, they let me take showers and cook here. Very lucky to work for such a company.

Here is a link to awesome awesome pictures taken by another houstonian http://flickr.com/photos/kaozrider/sets/72157607278391351/

As fore FEMA... i dont have high regards for them at all. I stood in line for ice and water on hillcroft yesterday for over two hours... the supposed "hot meal" box was a bag of peanuts and two andes mint candy. ????? what da hell? am i on an airplane or something??? and for the record no one has come to the heights at all for disaster relief. No gas, no stores, no electricity at all, they need to send food out this way. I have been sharing food with my neighbors for about 3 days now. we are all doing fine yet gas is about to be a major concern cuz i dont have enough to leave the heights area. My brother has been ordering pizza in sugar land and bringing it to us. lolz... sort of like a weird camping trip....

yIkes!

I'm literally living in my work office. my boss came to get me out of my apartment and now i'm at work which is 5 blocks away and we are running on a generator. There is no AC though and at my apartments I am without water and electricity. My dad and are doing fine, thanks to God. Hope all is well with friends and family. These are pictures outside my apartment and in my neighborhood. The bayou has risen a good 20 feet so just imagine how much water came through. normally if you look at the bayou from that viewpoint you would be scared of heights because the bottom would be waaaaaay lower than what it looks right now. I have no way out of this area since all the streets are flooded. my boss found a shortcut through a neighborhood to get to rice village from here so I will follow him in awhile to look for some food across town.

I'm at i-10 and TC Jester, the exact spot where the eye passed through upon landfall. My apartment was shaking like an earthquake and it caused a 4 building fire alarm to start blaring for about one and a half hours. My neighbors have all been helping each other which is exactly what seperates Houstonians from the rest of America. You will not found this kind of southern hospitality anywhere in the U.S.A.

Update on my killa bee scooter... again my neighbor let me put it in his garage so it is safe and sound! and zero my puppy is safe as well =) My mom and Richard are in Arkansas where they got the aftermath and tornados but are doing fine and Ernie is here fine as well.

ok this picture below i found on the internet to see if i could find you a before shot of White Oak bayou... this is what it is SUPPOSE to look like and you can see in my picture above of the bayou that it totally overflowed the cement and the hilly grass side and at one point was out on the streets but receded back into the bayou